The office talk, Merlin and PR application

Lately I have been writing about work and office.

I wonder why. Maybe I do not have anyone else in the office that can offer me wisdom so I resolved in writing about it in the blog.

Anyone of you watched Merlin?

We are still at season 3, I heard that it is at season 5 somewhere else.

My colleagues asked me why I watched a magic, witch, warlock show?

I told them, aahh do not watch Merlin because of all that. I watched Merlin to learn. To learn from the story on how he resolve his problems and ultimately save the kingdom. (note kingdom aka my organization :P)

His magic is a gift and extra bonus, surely we can replace that with "Doa and berharap pada Allah.."

The wisdom ie. He knows about Lady Morgana but he just could not tell Arthur about it. why? Think deep.

He solved problems discreetly and didn't take any credit (mostly). So that was what I like about Merlin. Some sort of therapy for me.

There is this 1 manager who is capable technically and was given such an important tasks in the company, however, he is bad in discipline and tardiness. He was also do things selectively to earn credit which means, he will only do things for the "higher authority" so when feedback came back that certain things are delayed, the higher authority said he wasn't like that with me. So how do you tell the management this? He is very cunning in a waylah....Like he will tell he is on medical leave, but he has never submitted any medical certificate. So basically missing in action. The higher authority of course only check the recorded ones, unless of course someone tell him about his missing in action. But who dares?

I do not dare because it is complicated. I do not want to be seen as "backstabbing" a colleague. Sometimes, I found it petty to tell the higher authority on this. Oh hr? My ex boss did not reported it because of theclose relationship between this guy and HR. Heh but anyway, that is his badlah. you need to report it nevertheless. So this delicate matters which is very destructive to him need to be handled with care. Strategically and as delicate as possible as the impact is great to the organization if he continues with this attitude.

So sad kan? We have lack of talent, and when we have 1, we are faced with another challenge. Hmm..

My PR application.

I did go to Singapore after my last entry. Bertolak pukul 930am and reached there around 1pm. It was just nice for our appointment that we set the day before.

Surprisingly, the only penalty is the reinstatement fee which is sgd50. I applied using my professional/job previously and now that I do not work there, I have to use "marriage cert" to a Singaporean to renew it. We were late about 5 days before the expiry dates.

Within 30 mins it is all done. Wow! Such an excellent service.

Then we went to CPF, since both of us not working in Singapore anymore, no contribution coming to our fund. Therefore, we could not use it to pay the mthly installment for our singapore house.

We got to know that we have certain limits to use our cpf fund as well (baru tau!!) since we bought the house in the open market. So like it or not, we have to use cash to pay at one point of time. We decided that since our financial a bit not stable and we need cash (rumah baru masuk banyak pakai cash) we will use cpf balance to pay for the next 12 mths.

Then we will continue with cash...

Nerve wrecking

My PR has expired.


Now very nerve wrecking to appeal.


I am supposed to be in Singapore but due to some personal reason could not go....


Will update.

Improving communication

It is hard sometimes to talk to lower rank of staff. Their interest and scope is different.

Sometimes you tend to not explain to them on the real picture as they could not understand the perspective anyway. Walaupun you cuba explain pada mereka positively. ie. kenapa certain tasks is being taken away, atau pun, kenapa dia tak boleh buat sesuatu di luar scope kerja... contohlah.

Sometimes, you rasa, arguing will be a waste of time since you will not have a good outcome. They will not accept your arguement and rectify it.

It is so sad to see them. slipping away from the real issue.

I think my CEO maybe have that problem with me, who knows.


One of assistant manager told me, "you never argue with me..." or sometimes she will say " dengan aku ko tak berani"..


My reply was just either smile (tak terkata) or "gaduh ngan ko buat apa" eheh... tapi reply paling i suka ialah.. "erm.. macam dengan si manager tu, kalau dia tak accept, buat apa nak waste time argue, i just bring up to her boss jer lah.." I hope she gets the message lah. (erm, that made me think, ko ingat argue tu nak tunjuk sapa kuat eh? hehehehe)

At least I argue dengan heads or ceo, I get the outcome or decision. argue dengan orang yang argue balik for the sake of arguing or because tak nak buat kerja wat per lah kan...elok aku cakap jer teruss ngan boss dia, terus kasi dia buat kerja tu, settle masalah aku.

Debaran March and Oz: The Great and The Powerful

I think I will write about something happy first kay?


My hubby went back to Singapore for his business thing during weekend.


I pun entah kenapa sabtu macam tak boleh bangun. I was telling myself, biarlah. Maybe elok juga badan ni rehat, kalau stress sangat tak elok for my brain and my health.


So nothing much on saturday. Not even laundry bolehhh?


Then Sunday datanglah kekuatan nak keluar rumah. I wasn't sure about watching movie. But I know we have to do some shopping for my daughter "list to do" for her camping this coming saturday.


She was sooooo excited for the camping event that I have to play along with her. Kasi dia support sket.


Off to Alamanda we went. Long time gal frens ajak jumpa kat SPA kat Bangi pun terpaksa I tolak... Mana aku nak campak baggage2 ni smua kalau tak. Tak syiok la borak and have a spa kalau ada budak merengek2 nak berak dan nak susu kannnnn... hahahaha!


Lepas dah habis checklist things to do/to buy, hmm ada cukup masa nak buat aktiviti lain seperti tengok wayang.


Actually I want to watch "lawak ke der" just to laugh out loud hilangkan stress.


tapi sebab bawak budak2 ribena, aku kena ketepikan keinginan adult aku tu.


Apa lagi nak tengok. Iron man kata 3 Mac, tapi tak dek pun! So terpaksalah pilih either Jack the beanstalk ker apa tah, dengan Oz.


I wasn't in the mood for some gergasi moments. I thought OZ will be a happy movie. (haha tak baca review sebelum pergi main terjah jer)



My dd whom is so into malay movie ajak tengok "cinta kita". erk.. please ibu wouldn't want to waste my money for some malay movie lah ok. astro movie ker vcd ker boleh di timbangkan but why do you need to watch it in big screen. no effects to be appreciated on. But that of course just me. Lawak ke der is an exception hehehehehe....


I pun ingat Oz ni akan buat I menyesal. but luckily, it was GOOD! not excellent macam lepas tengok the matrix. Tapi you and your kids will enjoy it.


DD remembered all their names except Oscar's full name. So in a way, I am having english tuition with them in there. DS was laughing at the jokes. I was impressed. So different from the time I ajak mereka tengok ice age movie.


I get the chance to tell them what is "twister" too = angin puting beliung.


So Alhamdulillah it was not a bad decision after all. Can't wait to have a 3D systems at home so we can do movie time at home instead of going to the cinema.


So what's up with March?


Can't wait for the decision from CEO on my performance. I really want to know how he evaluated me. That will give me some measures on how am I and if he thinks I have potential.


Can't wait also for the new team members in the office. That will also give me some hints on what to do next.


Can't wait for the bonuses as well lah.

Ya Rabbi.....

Memang kengkadang tu kena banyak beristighfar jelah duk kat office ni to remain the sanity. haha.


When you have to communicate up and down the line, it proves to be a challenge.


Reporting to the ceo, board and audit committee - it is difficult but at the same time, it is an honor to share their wisdom and insight walaupun haruslah kena whack kaw kaw. I needed that sometimes to collect my "wisdom" point and "experience" point so my knowledge will grow.


Communicating to the staff for us a bit difficult. Kalau by function it shd be down to the line, eventhough by position these people might be above you. When we first start out, ramailah sentap.


Macam, hey i ni paduka baginda, how dare you give me instruction...


ataupun, Eh helo, you ni cam merlin jer a servant, i ni first knight, how dare you refuse my order. i suh you close that findings, close je la (walaupun dia belum close) muahahahaha....


ada aku kesah kak? ekekekeke.....


setaun aku tak kesah per ko nak kata. Tapi akhirnya bulan ni baru aku sentap kemain kan. tak leh berenti aku nangis even aku challenge ceo. haha. lantak ko la bedah, aku tak leh retract apa aku buat depan ceo tu nak wat camner.



Tapi hari ni aku nak citer lain plak. Yang ni pasal how about the communications with the lower rank subordinates...


I have 2 direct reports which I think ok. kena push boleh jalan. tak push, jalan separuh.


tapi ada 1 ni, yang i share with the other due to back up duties, push ke apa ke, hambekkk blur giler. Malas aku nak tunggu smua aku buatlah utk dia. macam apa tau? boss aku frustrated with me, he go and do himself and then come back to me to ask me sign the report. cam tulah.


disebabkan it is not a direct report, maleh aku nak counsel ker or cakap. tapi character aku yang sound direct dalam joke2 aku tu pun dia tak paham, akak give up. ie. dear depa 2 orang ni aku suh buat kaw kaw, ko punya aku buatkan bagai, ko nak kata ko anak tiri memang nak kena belasah la ko ya.." dia gelak je .. ha kan...


akak tensen la jugak tapi sebab budak2 bawah cam gini masih senang nak di lentur dan boleh di reassign, akak rasa tak yah lah akak nak strict bagai hantar corrective action ke apa. gaji depa pun ciput. position depa ni pun easily replacable.


so cam tulah....

Ya Salam...

Cubaan.


Di ofis sekarang agak busy dan kelam kabut.


CEO's office is very challenging.


Sometimes you just have to acquire the wit and intelligence to handle them all.


Sometimes you just wept and drained out.


ie. a snr manager yesterday asked me to attend a meeting. when i asked him what is the objective of me attending it? what is it that he wants me to help him achieve? his answer was simply "we need you to whack some people so they can do things fast".


Ok so that is the impression and i hope we do not created "the need" to get some people to do the work. isn't bonus and increment enough to motivate people. sometimes i wonder about the working culture here.


To make the matter worst, we have some issue with our team member. Might have integrity issue with him. so i could not trust this manager to be handed a whole lot of tasks. This needs to be handled delicately and with a lot of wisdom. sometimes, believe it or not, need to do it with a strategy.

what a waste of time and talent.

Luahan rasa

This entry is nothing about projects.

I need to record this down.

I love my job. I am a career woman.

When I said I will put priority to my family, I kept my priority back to my work. So that reflects how I enjoy my work.


But lately, or since I moved to "the higher authority" office, life has changed tremendously.


This year alone I have about 14 days MC. and it is only march.


For the previous 3 days, I have fever with shivers and head spinning, but due to commitment at work, I still come to office.

The 1st day, I was just so scared of "pengsan" and noone discover me. I managed to survive till 8pm and drive back to Pajam safely. Alhamdulillah.


The 2nd day, I just have to come due to commitment with Bank Negara. True, even though "the higher authority" said "if you not around I will be your back up" how can I do that to a ceo? *roll eyes* di situ.


The 3rd day, I intend to take my medical leave. but one of the senior manager asked me to attend his meeting. sebab "i need you to whack some people there".......and that some people are the GMs.


So itulah nasib aku. I don't understand why a department head need to be whacked or to be guided in making the decision.

Dan aku tak paham kenapa aku kena jadik orang tengah kalau department heads tak setuju with each other. Aku akan paham kalau aku ni CEO.


So buat masa sekarang, aku rasa aku kena hadapi masalah ni macam CEO kerana objective aku di suruh buat kerja ni is to assist him kan. to be effective kenalah aku berfikiran macam a CEO.


Maybe aku selalu sakit dan agak depress sebab pressurenya terlalu besar.


Maybe sebab tu juga boss aku resign, one of the managers pun resign. HR head pun resign. semua ni ialah yang menyokong vision2 CEO. semua tak tahan nak hadapi issue2 ni semua.


So aku rasa, now aku tak ada head, aku yang kena galas semua ni, dan tak ada support systems aku lebih rasa down.


Down emotionally tapi work masih steady. tu yang mungkin buat aku sakit. I am pushing myself to over limit I guess.