The long awaited update!

Is it? muahahaha...


Dear Mr B,


Life has been so...slow lately. Everything is just a waiting game. I do not do this game so maybe Allah is training me to be more patience...


(Noone is actually extending their condolence for my late uncle's passing. I felt so unloved. I guess I have no real friends yet here. I have to work harder maybe)


I think house wise, I am officially not having any fund to continue with the project. That made me a bit demotivated to even tidying the house. As a perfectionist, I need everything to be ready and to be available. Otherwise world will crumble, I felt there would be no future or plan for this project. Since nothing I can do, let's just sabotag the house.



The one thing that kept me awake most of the nights is my career. Office politics is new to me. Especially at this level. Every single information that I received confused me. So much so that it depressed me hahahahahaha... I am just not a politician but I think I can be one of good players especially if they kept giving me this testlah. Poker face? I just have to work on the art of poker face. I will be good at it in no time.


What else did I learn?..................... On how not to take things seriously.


Seriously, it is a serious thing not to take things seriously. In all my naiveness, I thought "Of course we have to be serious about our job"... The answer is yes and no. Not all the time.


People is funny sometimes. When you are really into it, with serious face and all, people tends to distance themselves, but when you give them the impression you can't care less, work pouring your way and the level of dependencies increased unexpectedly.


I told you that is just funny.I do not comprehend it myself haha. But kesimpulannya, I think when you are so serious, they think you are their biggest competitor. But when you give them the "dun care" attitude, they thought they are doing your job. They thought it is so tak aci kan? Told you people is funny.


And the promotion thing. why would it bother me? Its Allah's work not them. However, I think do not dwell on it so much. People will distance themselves when you are so aggressive anyway. So the best things to do is to go to jobstreet.com.my.


Concurrently, business as usual. Who knows things will just get better in no time. But I seriously like the "dun care" attitude within the seriousness of the poker face. Hehe I guess if it works, it will be the best revenge ever.