Monday, December 16, 2013

Hibernation project

I determined to make the coming 2 years as my hibernation years.

So one of my plan is to get certified in PMP and to get my master degree...

Ramai kawan2 I tak perlu pun master master ni semua nak jadik COO ker director ker GM ker.. tapi I saja jelah ambik to increase my value. Lagipun ilmu apa salahnya... but it will come with sacrifices lah...money and time.

So my first project will be to sit in the PMP exam and pass the exam.

Training done.

Now it is the time to study.

I got to register first of course... nak register ni pun liat sungguh sebab kena ingat balik years of project experience... ramai plak dah resign so tengah pikir sapa nak jadik referees.

Banyak kan project I.... semua terbengkalai...huhuhuhu....


Wednesday, December 11, 2013

Coming to anniversary date soon!

Sometimes last year, I was a bit busy with the house...


I remember I was so stressed over contractors.. ordering things, getting things come on time and coordinating the jobs with contractors.


We made the fastest "house move" record with complicated requirements..  especially on the wiring part. It is the most headache part of all!! So make sure you get 1 good electrician who has enough time for you and do not have many jobs at the same time. When he focus on you, your schedule will be followed through... :P


I will make my anniversary entry soon.


Our progress. 


Our living and dining room have furnitures now... flashback....we only have 50k to spend so we decided to leave out the furnitures... I have specific requirements for furnitures and lighting so I prefer to live with nothing than getting something not to my vision.... :)


It is still not perfect though. we have limited budget so it is going to be sometimes next year before it will look like my vision.


I just completed my study area last night.. our family area quite big which is also one of my favourite space in the house. The original plan is to use all white IKEA furnitures, but IKEA furnitures in Malaysia is SOOOOO expensive! back in singapore it is so affordable!



So since study area is very important, I have to substitute it with a cheaper version. I hope I can replace it soon!

Garden

I have stopped maintaining the garden as I could not have what I want (due to limited financial budget). So terukkan!


Lagi satu, I am just busy with other personal things and careers, I seldom have time at home even during weekend!


Bau busuk


ha maghrib smalam ada, tapi sekejap.. It is more seldom that when we first move there. It did not bother our activity at all... tak de la sampai weekend kena pegi rumah kakak ker pegi window shopping ker sebab tak nak bau... haaa tu memang langsung tak dek ya! weekend kalau boleh memang suka duk rumah tapi akhir taun ni banyak lak aktiviti social!



The quarry thing...


Dulu tak berapa annoying sangat hal ni. I pun bukan environmentalist sangattttt ...


TETAPIIIII....... kalau lalu nak pegi komuter, sakit dada I tengok bukit bukau tu kena korekkk.... I think too much maybe. But I want the Majlis Perbandaran Nilai to STOP this.....


Dalam alquran ada sebut kenapa Allah jadikan bukit bukau, bahawasanya bumi ni dulu bergegar, dan Allah jadikan bukit bukau dan gunung ganang sebagai "ala lupa word yang di guna dalam terjemahan" tapi lebih kurang bermaksud, pencagak supaya tak bergegar...


I know the quarry company bukan muslim punya company, mana laa depa tau gunung tu Allah jadikan untuk apa ye tak? tapi yang meluluskan tu aku guarantee sure muslim!


ha ok da jumpa ayat Quran tu......

surah an-Nahl ayat 15 yang bermaksud “Dan Dialah Allah yang telah memasakkan gunung-gunung di bumi agar bumi itu tidak bergerak dan bergoncang bersama kamu”. 



Kalau ko korek bukit2 tu jahhhhh, nanti jadik bencana alam acaner jahhhhh oooiiii!!!!!




Tolong sapa2 yang ada power kan MPN tu kasik share sket surah tu! Bila aku tengok quarry company tu upgrade bangunan dia syantek2 alamak ni macam semua bukit bukau tu dia nak korekkkk.. dulu bangunan dia cam nak runtuh jer kannn....


Tu lah dia yang aku tengah tensen skarang..


Bau busuk is something you can eliminate in no time. but natural disaster caused by human is the real threat to PAJAM ok!



How do you tell this to non-believer. It is something that has not happenned. Arghhh tension tension!



Tuesday, October 29, 2013

Update sekitar Pajam after 10 mths!

I'm sure mesti ada yang nak tahu perkembangan seterusnya selepas 10 bulan plak tinggal di sini kan?


Bau Busuk


Sangatlah jarang sampai tak sedar.... Tapi rasanya jarang sangat dah. Dan kalau ada pun sekejap2 jer... Begitulah, positively you know it will be dealt or will be resolved, so it won't haunt you la sangat... It definitely did not haunt me as at now...



Traffic


Dah semakin ramai orang2 middle class tinggal di sini (Pajam/Mantin) so traffic banyak sket pagi. Coming Nada Alam, I think it will be worst. But years to come, I think they will do something about the road tu lah... The election is 5 years once so ada chance the residents could give some threats to the wakil rakyat la kan huhuhuhu.....



Yang paling tak best depan komuter tu. Kalau 7am or 7pm plus, memang panjang gila... So alternative ways is exit via bandar mahkota... traffic jam cuma di batang benar "KTM bridge" tu jer....



Selalunya that's my route lah.




Komuter


I know some days I will appreciate this facility. Memang pun! Di sebabkan traffic jam di sg besi and depan komuter batang benar tu, I amik komuter now ni... Bukan I saja tapi ada jiran Ivory Villa pun sama.... Cuma kalau ada appointment with client terrrrpaksa la drive....


Kalau I amik komuter 713am dari batang benar, I akan sampai KL sentral about 8am, tukar LRT - a few station to kerinchi dan jalan a bit , sampai ofis 820am... Hebatttt sangat awalllll jugakkk kannnnn??????? suker kak ton.


jangan lupa pakai touch n go card yer :) sangat convenient.. ngan smartag2 skali i masuk dalam handbag... haha...



Apa yang paling pening duduk pajam????


1. bila kawan nak wat reunion kat bukit beruntung
2. kalau ada job offer kat factory bukit beruntung walaupun as a GM tapi tak dapat amek sbb camner nak report work at 8am kan? ada yang terbeli second house kat bukit beruntung kang...
3. once in a while i wish ada shortcut yang terusss ke PLUS highway since i tak pakai LEKAS.. lekas best kalau nak gi seremban....
4. kalau nak gi nursery (garden) kat rawang.. huhuhuhu i jumpa satu nursery yang best kat rawang tapi nak re-visit cam malesssss.....


ha tu jelah... masalah nak connect ngan bukit beruntung and rawang....



How about kalau nak pi mid valley and ikea, curve, etc???


1. mid valley - naik komuter settle! actually dulu kitorang punya second choice of "house to be called home" is somewhere kat jalan reko, bangi and selling point of that house is 20 mins to mid valley.. station UKM, actually jauh 2 stations jer ngan batang benar!

2. ikea and curve, I use nilai utara highway. i banyak kalik juga pegi ikea and curve ok jer distancenya abt 1 hourlah. Tak  ada la cam malasss sangat....semangat jer! kalau nak pi bukit beruntung tu yang kurang semangat sket....

3. puchong and putrajaya or bangi, memang tak ada masalah la sangat....every now and then I pergi bangi to frequent the spa or to meet friends... sometimes i go to puchong to window shop lights and furniture....


Sunday, October 27, 2013

The backyard project

After 10 months!


....Barulah duit or cash flow balik pada asal.. haha! Ye tak malu i nak mengaku sebab kita ni semua manusia kan. Apalah sangat nak menunjuknya, sometimes i terfikir juga, rumah di kubur nanti di sendat dengan tanah2 saja... huhuhu....Back to the topic, kalau idak asik2 over budget... banyak project tergendala... Alhamdulillah rezeki dari Allah.. Tak berhenti2 bersyukur.. Dapat beli rumah ni pun cam unbelievable sangat...... bangun pagi, balik kerja nampak rumah macam "How did we do this? masyaAllah syukurrrr"...



I dah beli batu bata untuk buat vege beds last sat. Punya bertahun malas nak plan. Since baru dapat bibik baru ni, adalah masa terluang sedikit. 



Hari ahad baru free nak buat itupun masa hujan rintik2... teringat blog abangtam.blogspot.com dia selalu citer lepas hujan lembut tanah.. so mulalah menyangkul petang2 buta tu dengan hujan rintik2... 



Dapatlah pindahkan daun kari and the tembikai kuning sprout yang kalau lambat lagi, harus mati kot sprout2 tu.....



Tak cukup rupanya bricks putih tu. Tanah pun tak cukup... (I dapat inspiration how to do the gardening dari salam2benua.blogspot.com) so kena beli lagi nampaknya untuk pindahkan semua pasu2 tu. I nak start semai cili padi kecik tu jugak.. cili padi kecik kalau buat sambal belacan baru best.



Masa I menyangkul dan menyendat2 tanah nak bagi pokok daun kari tu tegak, teringat I, jangan lah kita menyombong pada bumi, kelak kepada dia lah kita di tanam... sayu plak bila I amik tanah buat sendat pokok tu macam lagaknya menyendat mayat di dalam bumi.... huhuhuhu.......



The backyard furniture.



I was doing some window shopping at Nilai 3 (Gawd I love my place sebab sangat dekat gi Nilai 3 ni hahahaha)...bila i ternampak kedai rose garden ker haper... best bunga2 nya and the vase sebab sama kasta lagaknya dengan SSF. So takyahlah I nak pi SSF gitu. Kalau idak pening I berangan nak kena kumpul duit gi SSF. 



Dan di kedai yang sama gak I ternampak outdoor furniture... Aiseh, u know how much? 750!!! complete set. That beats IKEA price anytime but mmg nampak cam mahai la kan... it was on offer. Original price of cos lah 1k over kannn... Cuma I have to buy the "parasol" (cam tu ke spell) from IKEA which is about 200. tak silaplah.




Boleh di pertimbangkan. Now at least I get an option. a cheaper one... cuma I still cant figure out if I should cement the backyard tu dulu or just leave the grass, or lay bricks?? insyaAllah I will get the idea soon. I usually will have that lama-kelamaannya. 



Sesungguhnya project2 rumah ni buat I lebih banyak bersabar dan tak gelojoh muahahaha.....






Wednesday, October 23, 2013

Some updates!

Career wise, things are getting better.


Though I am good at governing, but it is not a popular job. Business and projects are still my favorites so far. I got adrenalin rush to close a deal!


Anyway.


I owe some pics.


The sprout!
 
Tembikai kuning insyaAllah.. But I have not decided how to transfer these to the ground... I have no idea how to make the kitchen garden look nice! Besa la I take longg time to make decision over simple things like this (for the house that is... career I am more decisive)..


 Kitchen garden....


My new lightings... for 9 months I have been checking the price... tak mampu....one day nak beli aircond (cheapo one of coz!) singgah sat and taraaa! it was on 50% discount! my husband was in his good mood so kita tangkap 2 sekali. No more dangling wire!



 
Lepas tu baru lagi best buat makan2 and gathering kat rumah.. Lebih kurang 5 kali gathering with dangling wire!! now baru ada lampu hiks!


Tak reti nak rotate, sorry... and rushing ni curik masa lunch. 


Currently I am obsessed with outdoor furniture and considering to put one just outside my kitchen... but still very pre-lim, tak ada idea yg semenggah lagi!


 How come white looks better every time?????

 Not bad. but tak rustic sgt kannn...
 can be considered...
 2nd option.
 I actually love the chair.. Looks good in the pic not so much outside (IKEA)


Modern look. I am dying to do something for the "small" backyard! Let's see how it turns out yah!




Thursday, October 10, 2013

Vege/kitchen garden...

Hari tu ada orang kasi tembikai kuning. I remember when I was small, mak aku sibuk naaa carik tembikai kuning, dan tak makan tembikai merah.


So i determined to try to plant it.. I mmg tak pandai tapi i nak cuba...


Tak lama lepas tu dalam 2-3 hari, aku tengok... tadaaaaaa timbul sprout dia!! wooo hooo!


Best day ever.


Cumanya, now I have to think camner nak transfer to the real vege bed....


Nak transfer pokok limau, kari, pandan and serai jugakkk.. I need to plan the garden.. stress jugak sebab takut turn out not what I imagine how it should be.....

Thursday, September 19, 2013

Kringgg...kringg....

2 weeks ago we got a call to say that "now we are ready to install streamyx in your house"..


huaaaaaa!


So bolehla alarm pun connect to the nearest police station..


and wireless internet!



No fiber optics though just normal 48kbps saja.......



My neighbor also very happy haha! Kitorang pasang selang sehari gitu...lol!

Sunday, September 8, 2013

Choosing a unit...

Sejak pindah, Alhamdulillah dah banyak juga buat makan2 di rumah baru ni... kalau selalu tetamu datang rumah banyak rezeki kan?...Paling best is actually masa buat buka puasa dan solat terawikh berjemaah dengan family, makcik dan sepupu rapat... My niece ada buat video and pasted in the youtube. Please have a look. For a 17 years old gal, she is quite creative kan...?
 
 
The recent one that we had, it started with kawan2 rapat office nak datang, lepas tu just 2 days before the day, sedara mara plak nak turun dari Singapore, then my sedara dari Seremban, then kawan sekolah and the list just goes on and on. Maka ramai juga yang tak dijemput disebabkan nak simple punya pasal.
 
"Nak simple tapi ada khemah" - is the joke of the day semalam yang aku kena jawab... hahaha...
 
 
Hakikatnya sebab kita tak ada sofa dan rumah tak banyak kusi, so terpaksalah rent a tent muahaha...
 
My criterias for the unit.
 
Bila kawan2 datang, soklan yang paling suka di tanya, "berapa harga rumah ni". haha camner nak jawab tu? So I cracked a jokelah, rumah ni dapat hadiah menang slogan nescafe... muehehehe. ingat tak dulu nescafe ada buat peraduan menang sebuah rumah... memang pun I masuk peraduan tu sebab nakkkkk sangat rumah. Teringat I pulun beli pek nescafe untuk bukti pembelian... hahahaaha
 
 
Masa I umur 20an, I pun dapat swatch wrist watch menang saguhati peraduan nescafe gak..sebab tu aku suka ikut peraduan nescafe.... :P
 
 
Oh, lain-lain topik plak antaranya, "Eh bagus rumah ni depan tak ada rumah lain... " OOOOooooo yang itu memang one of criteria for me to choose a unit. Mesti tak ada rumah depan rumah I. Nak parking susah, dan bagi I , payah bukak langsir kang.... lagipun kalau anak I bergaduh, bukan jiran sebelah jer dengar, jiran depan dekat 10 unit lagi dengar kakakakakaa..... Baik avoid ye dak?...Dan kalau nak tau, criteria ini di mulakan dengan my father. My father choose his house mesti tak ada rumah lain di depan... mesti either padang , surau or seangkatan dengannya...3 of his houses gitu..
 
 
Then bila my sis beli rumah, pun sama.... tak amek yang blocked with another house.... my brother jugak terikut2...punya stress nak dapatkan unit yang tinggal satu jer, which is tak ada rumah depan rumah tu... berhari2 lamanya dia cuba nak holdkan unit tu sampai loan dia lulus... ehehehehe....
 
 
Even, rumah sewa I sebelum ni pun I pilih yang depan unit tu padang.. hehehe.. sabo je la kan....
 
 
Lagi satu, mengada2 lagi criteria,  kena ada lampu jalan depan rumah tu, so tak lah gelap.....
 
 
Lagi satu influence from our father... Rumah kena ada surau. Senang nak solat sama2 dan senang orang nak datang solat...my ex-staff kata, "aik dalam rumah pun ada surau"... sebab dia tak paham pesal nak ada surau dalam rumah, kan ker boleh solat jer dalam bilik masing2... hehehehehe.. memang pun kitorang solat kat mana2 bilik. tapi solat jemaah , mengaji buat dalam surau ni... macam orang putih punya reading room lah konon...kan. specific for reading or relaxing. The surau project ni belum habis lagi. sekarang ni temporary jer. Kalau boleh I nak buat macam ala masjid nabawi cum library... tapi budget tadek now hehehee....
 
 
Gardening


So far, only serai, pandan, limau dan curry leaves jer ada. muehehehe.. I am dreaming about buying a BIG pot for these plants.

Pictures later.

Friday, August 30, 2013

House & career

Sorry for the lack of updates...


I think I am in a "phase" in my career...a very dark phase it seems...


Alhamdulillah I dun really get depressed for itlah. mula2 saja..I know Allah is trying to test and make me learn... in a hard way it seemslah... learning in hard way will make you tougher.


House, finally all the left over construction jobs ie maintenance and repair was done. after eight mths of staying there. So all paid now. But I do ask for some discounts lah sebab ada yang tersalah pasang.... lambat bukan sebab apa, saja je tunggu warranty period is over kan. Kalau bayar habis kang, panggil datang repair pun tak nak datang kan....


Gardening...


I now baru rasa nak move on with the gardening projects. But I wish I can get some of the land to be cemented and floored first.


Tapi pun, maybe i will start little by little and not to put high expectations.


TMNet...

The fixed line not yet connected. Susah bangettt... I want unifi boleh? cepatlah ada connection, have been 8 mths without wifi... terukk sangat.


Bau busuk...


Standardlah kena update pasal ni...


Now bau dia lebih sekejap dari dulu. Pagi sekejap, maghrib sekejap... lepas tu free from the bau.




My dining room kusi nyer putih cam tu.. tapi lighting nya belum decide nak design apa... so apakata weekend ni i pegi window shopping muehehehehe....


Wednesday, July 17, 2013

Into the 7th month in Pajam...

Do I still like it?



Have I changed my mind?



Seriously everytime I saw my house I could not stop thanking Allah for it. It is more than I ever imagine I could have.



Bau busuk?



Lately tak ada. Last months, waktu pagi dan maghrib, bau tahi ayam, but the smell was gone after few hours. When we came inside the house, the smell did not follow us. Maybe coz we did not open our windows.



So it did not bother us much.



The school. 



So far, my children is happy, it seems that they have less stress, and my son usually gets 25 out of 40 (in his previous chinese school and with private tuition), in his mid term here, he got no 4 out of 15. without tuition. Chinese subject failed though. But surprisingly maths and science which are in chinese he scored about 70ish... That is good already to me. I am not raising einstein kan.


DD's accomplishment I think is normal, somehow I expected her to study by herself coz I have to focused on my son and his chinese subjects. I realized she is being neglected. Though by percentage and marks she is ok (no 1 in class, and no 1 again in her sekolah agama) but majority of her marks wasn't 90ish. To me the marks shows there are something in those subjects dia masih tak paham....


So all that were not because we were in Pajam. That was my fault for not spending more time with her.



What are the things I like most staying in Pajam?


I definitely love being near to Nilai 3. I do not have problems with shopping for groceries etc. I like it when I go to Alamanda I tak payah bayar toll.  I suka juga beli baju2 harian yang boleh tahan murah la jugakkk kat Nilai 3 or dataran nilai tu. Suka suka.....


I love the surroundings, the greenery and the silent at night time...... I know it will not be long, but it is not as crazy as Puchong where we lived before. Maybe we have about 3-4 years before it will get crazy like Puchong. But changes are always good.


Speedmart is nearby, it just fit our lifestyle yang malas pegi beli barang hehehehee.... Kadang2 pinjam jerlah trolley tu kan bawak balik rumah, petang2 hantar balik... so best sangat...ekekekeke...


Lagi satu sebab dekattt sangat ngan seremban, senang pegi rumah my cousin.



What are the things I do not like.


Hmm... maybe the bad smell of taik ayam yang once in a while tu. especially if my parents were around...they were quite vocal in complaining.. malas layan hehehee....they make it sound like so big and annoying....since it was not annoying to us that much (coz we know it was just once in a while) so it was rather annoying to layan all those questions...... So maybe you will have that problems too :P. So i think maybe menjawab soklan tu yang lebih malas dari mengharungi bau tu. Mungkin sebab we bought the house fully aware of the problems. kalau tak tau, mau mentally disturbed. So again, kindly take note, sebelum buat BIG commitment, assess the problems and ensure you can handle it.


the bau sampah dah tak ada...hmm yelah kan? bau sampah tu dah tak ada, maybe sebab lepas kebakaran besar kat situ ekekekeke kalau betul ada orang sabo, thank you to that person. Matters was taken into their own hands sebab it was not solved for years kot? kotlahhhhh......


I hope this experience is useful to anyone out there.


Nada Alam?


I am sure the design and concept is better than Ivory Villa. The place lagi dekat dengan KTM which will be fantastic for investment. 6-7 stops jer to KL Sentral kan.


Cuma, I wish..... they will besarkan jalan and I wish they can make a short cut to PLUS highway. It will be fantastic. The traffic jam after 730am is just so annoying. I resorted to taking short cut to Seri Putra nowadays. Save my duit toll juga.


And I really do not like the big lorry there. arghhhhh.... but of course I do not like it sebab selalunya sebab I tak organize pada waktu pagi dan bertolak lambat (ok dun look at me like that, kadang2 anak i menangis2 nak roti nak segala menda and I was late ok...hahahaha)... kalau bertolak pukul 655am will not have this "stress" ekekkekee...



By the way, malas nak buat entry lain.


Just to make a private note here that after Lawrence Walter training, and after my exboss said "stay with us" and a couple of people saying the same thing... i plan to retract. I told this to him and my current boss, and he said "that was one great news to me, what a great day..." I am still quite phobia, so I told my current boss, i will not inform HR yet coz i need time, please bear with me... yes I really need time. sebab I think I am still struggling with whatever had happened. but the funny part is....


The next day nya, while driving to work, i started to cry again.. arghhhhh! it is still hazardous..!!


I think quitting is the best decision. I dunno why I retract, maybe malas carik kerja. Malas panic... I thought projects sekarang macam best... tapi kenapa tetiba nangehhhh ekekeke...I am still fighting with my inside demons to understand the whole thing..please bear with me.




Saturday, July 13, 2013

Of being strategic...

Ok office talk again..


By the way, my neighbor is currently busy with their house projects. I know how it felt. I do not even have time to start gardening... siram rumput pun tak ada masa camner tu..


Sometimes I just so pelik with myself. I know why I love work because at the end of the day, I will be rewarded. It is a systems that works. Other than reward, a sense of belonging and a sense of accomplishment that bring the adrenalin rush... Maybe that were the reason.


I kind of love being in the new department now. Managing 2 projects without planning to be a project manager... In a way, I am back to where I belong I guess.... No more on managing people at higher level, listening to all those complaints and handling difficult people who just refused to comply :) It was totally the darker side...


Let's see how. Maybe this is the strategy that the "he" mentioned to one of my colleagues, to bring me back? Or Allah's plan.... He knows maybe this is the best place for me. No interview calls so far pun.... Teruk sangat kan.... I think everywhere is like that coz I knew a couple of people who still struggling finding a new job with better salary nowadays.

Wednesday, July 10, 2013

The L*awrence Walter seminar...

I remember that I gave this guy a hard time...


It almost never happen...


But at the end, not only me, but MOST of my "strong character" colleagues, experience the same thoughts..


"nowadays, if I hear my children fight with each other, nak jer cakap ni laa kalau tak pergi lawrence walter seminar.. " heheheheheh


Betulllll tak tipu. kadang2 aku bila dengar anak2 aku terjerit2, aku macam heran, pesal la depa gitu.. tak pergi l*awrence walter seminar la tu....


Hahahahaha...



Even one of the snr manager nak hantar anak dia pergi lawrence walter seminar. memang bagus. CEO aku yang pada mulanya tak setuju pun sangat berubah lepas seminar tu.......


Fully recommended for your office! A life changing experience.

Monday, July 1, 2013

The world knew!

"Why the sudden decision?"


Nope it is not sudden. It has been in my mind since last december.


"Kenapa ko merajuk"..


hehehe lagi tak. I might have to go back to Singapore... or ... just to reflect. It has nothing to do with my boss.


"I saw your face is light up nowadays"


Bullsh*tlah ekekeke..... But in a way it is true, I felt that those baggage is no longer in my shoulder.


"Habislah, people will start to be demotivated... The most motivated, positive and energetic staff also resigned"..


eyyyy... I am not the best people out there. My leave has nothing to do with anything. I really do not want to send the wrong message.


My boss (without even speak to me) passed me a bood yesterday "Reclaim your hea*rt" by Yasmin Mo*gahed.


Omg. I have not finished reading but how can he know exactly what I am going through! The book is some sort of consultation with him without face to face. Maybe better.


maybe man is just less expressive with words, but he definitely a shaking best boss ever. I will carve his name in my personal "my ex-boss alumni" fyi, not all names were there.

Friday, June 28, 2013

The painful journey

I think I have buried my house projects in a while. Sorry for those who are looking forward to the progress....


The fact is ..... I twas busy trying to "maintain my cool @ work" so it has been either a challenge or a worry.



So that might be the reason why I wrote about it a lot recently.



I have cried 4 times - 3 times with CEO and 1 time with CSO.



That is how miserable I was.



The painful part is when I have little respect about what I do. I do not mind helping and "performing", just give me an extra hand. I have been telling this to a number of people with no decision come from it. I devise a plan to help them (also to help me) but I received cynical feedback. I have shown how I can be a good mentor, but that just not being acknowledged until ....... i give them the ultimatum.



I just want to record this down and see what happen when I read about this in the future. 



In a way, it is good to see that finally , eventhough it took some painful decision, my previous leadership skill being acknowledged and ...... executed... semua lepas this painful decision that I have to take.....



He did not announce my resignation to others. (He did after 1 day) Some think I am just threatening. but i am not.



I do not do it for fun.




I felt a sense of relief like I have removed a whole lot of baggage. I am happier.




Aku still cenge la kalau aku tingat what people say or do to me. Enough said, I have to do some soul searching. And I need to get back my mojo hahahahaha......



insyaAllah adalah rezeki kat mana2.... Amin! Doakan yer.. camner bill yang melambung2 ni kalau idak.....

Thursday, June 20, 2013

What's up with me?

The significant thing that happen to me this week is..... drummmm rollllll......I got an interview. finally! muahaha... At least dapatlah test market seadanya kan. Punya lama try hantar resume...


Yang lagi satu best ialah I spoke to my boss's secretary and apparently her outlook is much more comforting and positive than HR's outlook. Camner tu?


I told her that HR might drive me outlah if this continues. (whatever the thing I am facing nowlah).


Apparently the new "C" pun terkena. So after the incidents, Allah tolong aku, terus "his" attitude towards me no longer cautious but I think I earned his trust about 20% now. He is very open with me now just like my current boss. Good!


If I got the new job offer, I might miss this. Allah please guide me, guide my heart and guide my future. Amin!



Wednesday, June 12, 2013

The Merlin story my version

Today I will remember.


"You can choose to be in any position you want in my office"


"Or you can choose to be in the C2 office"


"I will consider your offer on the other position also" ya aku telah mencadangkan keluar dari officenya dan lead a dpt...


"But you have to make a decision fast"

C2 pulak.. "you need to make a decision, if you want to join me almost welcome"


owh lihatlah doniya betapa aku amat wanted di C level ya.. hahahaha!


Dan aku punya stupid response ialah: "Eh, I can choose ker?" hahahahha bongok!


And another stupid response..."Tak per, I will think first and I let you decide later. it should be  how I can contribute most in the org"

"you better be fast as I am finalizing the new structure" best kan??? hahahaha.....

Setelah banyak rumours yang mengatakan he wants to get rid of me, yang tak betul rupanya, even dia terkezut banget bila aku kata gitu. So hari ni adalah something yang melegakan.....

Tuesday, June 4, 2013

Another corporate issue

Dun pick fight with HR. They managed your salary and most probably will have a say or input in your promotion.
 
 
I defy that rule yesterday.
 
 
It is an effort to manage the relationship with everyone. You basically have to think through what to say and not to say so the relationship will always be good.
 
 
 
Yesterday I blew it. Not because I lose my temper. I think I have been tolerating the voice tone, the remarks, the negative perception, so yesterday I decided to campak the rule to tong sampah and say my piece.
 
 
 
I am not sure the impact to my career. I know it is risky but with or without, my career has been stagnant for the past 2 years. So I decided this "piece" is needed so at least I will not be suffering that long. Ko ingat senang nak telan bodoh2 remarks cam tu... It is so depressing sometimes.
 
 
 
Things going in different direction suddenly yesterday. I hope I will have a chance to learn. I love it when the higher authority said this : "4 years is max in ceo's office then we need to see if we can deploy you somewhere else" Erm I disagree on the 4 years tho. I am looking at 2 years......and when you said deployed, I am hoping not just "inside", but "outside" too...... he added "let's discuss this later with the C*SO"...
 
 
ohkay. InsyaAllah.
 
 

Monday, June 3, 2013

When trusting no one is the name of the game...

Seriously, I have never been in "the game".


But I am appreciating this experience. I will be more wiser next time. 


Appreciating one's value is not in the agenda it seems (at least not in this phase). It is more of the "emotional style" best described here :

http://hbr.org/2001/12/primal-leadership-the-hidden-driver-of-great-performance/ar/1


Excerpt :


Our investigation was designed in part to look at how emotional intelligence drives performance—in particular, at how it travels from the leader through the organization to bottom-line results. “What mechanism,” we asked, “binds the chain together?” To answer that question, we turned to the latest neurological and psychological research. We also drew on our work with business leaders, observations by our colleagues of hundreds of leaders, and Hay Group data on the leadership styles of thousands of executives. From this body of research, we discovered that emotional intelligence is carried through an organization like electricity through wires. To be more specific, the leader’s mood is quite literally contagious, spreading quickly and inexorably throughout the business.


If one read "who moved my cheese" one will appreciate changes. Even though it may sounded very bad at first, learn to cope with it. Learn to embrace and be positive with it. The book cited many example of success stories after the initial "what it seems to be a bad change at first"....


Rather than walking straight to a brick of walls, changes will offer a big hole of opportunity in the wall itself and will bring one to the best leap of faith later on....



How could one not taking this chance as one big opportunity? Try it first then only be disappointed later. At least it will bring new experience as well as taking 50% probability of success. At least there is a 50% of chances to be successful rather than going around in a circle.


Am I making sense to you?

Tuesday, May 28, 2013

The long awaited update!

Is it? muahahaha...


Dear Mr B,


Life has been so...slow lately. Everything is just a waiting game. I do not do this game so maybe Allah is training me to be more patience...


(Noone is actually extending their condolence for my late uncle's passing. I felt so unloved. I guess I have no real friends yet here. I have to work harder maybe)


I think house wise, I am officially not having any fund to continue with the project. That made me a bit demotivated to even tidying the house. As a perfectionist, I need everything to be ready and to be available. Otherwise world will crumble, I felt there would be no future or plan for this project. Since nothing I can do, let's just sabotag the house.



The one thing that kept me awake most of the nights is my career. Office politics is new to me. Especially at this level. Every single information that I received confused me. So much so that it depressed me hahahahahaha... I am just not a politician but I think I can be one of good players especially if they kept giving me this testlah. Poker face? I just have to work on the art of poker face. I will be good at it in no time.


What else did I learn?..................... On how not to take things seriously.


Seriously, it is a serious thing not to take things seriously. In all my naiveness, I thought "Of course we have to be serious about our job"... The answer is yes and no. Not all the time.


People is funny sometimes. When you are really into it, with serious face and all, people tends to distance themselves, but when you give them the impression you can't care less, work pouring your way and the level of dependencies increased unexpectedly.


I told you that is just funny.I do not comprehend it myself haha. But kesimpulannya, I think when you are so serious, they think you are their biggest competitor. But when you give them the "dun care" attitude, they thought they are doing your job. They thought it is so tak aci kan? Told you people is funny.


And the promotion thing. why would it bother me? Its Allah's work not them. However, I think do not dwell on it so much. People will distance themselves when you are so aggressive anyway. So the best things to do is to go to jobstreet.com.my.


Concurrently, business as usual. Who knows things will just get better in no time. But I seriously like the "dun care" attitude within the seriousness of the poker face. Hehe I guess if it works, it will be the best revenge ever.







Thursday, May 16, 2013

Of nothing.

I guess I was mourning for so long... sorry for the lack of updates.


I was depressed and tried to deal with it.


Office is another thing to be depressed about. I am actually the last one standing in the office. And dealing with many levels makes me very busy.


Just so many things to learn. But honestly I need help.

Monday, May 6, 2013

Dealing with a loss

At about 230am yesterday.. when others were rejoicing on the results of PRU13, some may be not, I was awaken by an awful news. 


An uncle who is so dearest to me passed away. 



I would want to tell about how I felt here. But I realize, I am just too tired to vent. 



But enough said, I have regrets...................for not able to minta maaf, for not be able to hug him, for not be able to say thanks.


This uncle thought me mengaji, and taranum, sampai I johan sekolah, johan daerah etc.  many many times...



This uncle thought me berkompang, he always have the leadership quality in his way of teaching. But he is a silence leader. he did not talk much but, respected. Teringat masa I kecik, dia terus kasi I pemukul gendang tu untuk I yang pukul, while emak2 akan berkompang.... and I pun sangat semangat ikut instruction dia when to pukul. I have fond memories of my childhood days, part of it due to him.



For years and years, he made the habit to read quran, imagine, in all his spare time. Not just 10 mins, but all the time he free. He will cycle to masjid every waktu.. puasa sunat isnin khamis... I guess I did not even inspired by it when he is still around, but now I am just so inspired by him.


Dia punya routine mengikut sunnah. He eats roti with madu etc. Tak minum ais...etc.. He is never sick, seldom demam... Dan semasa dia di jemput ajal. it was like 5 mins before he is ok, and all of sudden he just fall, and he chose 1 particular grandson who is studying medicine (last semester dah) to stay with him. "duk dengan atuk jangan pergi mana2"... And the time is just so right between midnight and subuh, dia berniat puasa isnin etc... The second round of CPR (done by this grandson), he was awake just to mengucap. Even though the whole family was sad, but we agreed, Allah has chosen the right timing for him... Everything about him is easy. Uruskan jenazah dia juga cepat dan senang. Just like him. Tak ada kesusahan or orang yang susah semasa uruskan jenazah dia... MasyaAllah....


He was 86. Even masa baca talkin, imam tu yang juga kawan dia di masjid, sebak, tak dapat teruskan talkin tu.... 


I was always take him for granted... I did not sit down and make time to chat with him more... I need to change this. 



Sunday, April 28, 2013

The house and The office

I do not have much to talk about house right now.
 
 
When you do not have loads of budget to complete the house and have to do it in phases so updates will be slowlah....
 
 
Only 4 areas almost complete as of end of April 2013.
 
1. My son's room (90% - I need to hang photograph, book case, etc)
2. Guest room (I need to hang the frame, put TV just so I could make it like a homestay concept...)
3. Dining room (the ceiling lamp not yet chosen, the table lamp and flower arrangement)
 
 
So my house still looks like in the midst of constructionlah.


 
Memang stress pindah rumah ni...
 
 
Recently, I called Astro to come and pasang upgrade for superpack and 2nd decoder... I thought I have perfectly planned the cabling and wiring.. but it is still not perfect. Dia kena cross over the roof and campak cable ke belakang so.. at the back of my house the wiring is dangling like noone's business..Earlier during thr project I actually plan for another wiring, but it did not happen that way due to some constraint.
 
 
 
Secondly, if you have "the pvr" function, they required 2 cables. Nasiblah baik the master bedroom got one extra and we can pulled out the cable from the wall and reverse the cable to the front. I hope you can imagine what I mean :P Kalau tak another hacking or cabling dangling outside :(



It is something that I NEVER expected.



The office has little updates too. Infact I kindly turn my back from it slowly. not neglecting it. Just not as passionate.

Thursday, April 25, 2013

Travel : Petua and ikhtiar nak cium Hajarul Aswad

Sorry aku tak continue with new entry on my umrah trip sekian lama.... It is hard to blog backtrack when something new coming your way...


Anyway, I will blog yang penting2 so you all can share my experience.



I was quite blur about everything. But I was determined. So buku2 macam TRAVELOG haji tu banyak menolong. Baca pengalaman orang juga so you kind of do your own strategy after that.



Husband aku dah merasa masa first time dia pergi so dia tak nak try lagi, for me this is my first trip so a bit excited to do everything.



To cut the story short. I tried 3 times.



Aku dah lupa tapi I tried before subuh and in between zuhur and asar. When you looked at the sea of people, you just think it is impossible.


My first try is with husband. Dalam buku travelog haji dia ada ajar guna anak panah. But it did not work with me and my husband.


Di sebabkan takut menjadi haram berebut2, I asked my husband to call it off. So we stop after failed.



Esoknya, sebelum subuh, I went a bit early. I came alone as my husband would want to take his time to shower etc as subuh lambat lagi masuk pun.



I tried. But I forgotten that I have brooches in my sling back. One young iranian gal yang tengah bergayut kat dinding kaabah kata dengan muka sedihhhhh  "sister, you have pin in your bags.." OMG, yaAllah aku telah menyakiti dia... At that time I was about 2 feet from the hajar aswad.. But I called it off. There is no way I could reach there without hurting others, I tak boleh pun nak pusingkan I punya bag, how pack it was with people. So I back off.......... Tapi, akibat dari menyakiti orang tu, I hilang Nokia phone (my husband punya actually...huhu) Tapi tak pelah...




The next day, I went again........before subuh. This time around I solat hajat dulu.. Infact sebelum try hari tu pun memang solat hajat banyakkkk kali minta di lapangkan jalan ke hajar aswad. Walaupun sunnah, teringin nak tengok batu dari syurga.. apa lagi menciumnya.. rasullah pernah cium, so I just want to do itlah for Allah...




And then ada satu tips tu, ikut jalan indon yang kerjanya amik upah bawak orang cium hajar aswad. I tak pun upah sebab banyak pendapat pasal tu... tapi I did study camana mereka bergerak. (ini ada dalam blog orang lain so I copy the tipslah)... So I approach dari kanan. lagi satu jangan bertolak2 nanti jadi haram... So you kind of follow the push factor...


sampailah i ke dinding sebelah kanan kaabah.. nanti you akan di tolak ke depan ke belakang, sekejap macam lagi satu kaki jer nak sampai, tapi nanti you jadik tetiba 2 kaki dari hajar aswad pulak...Ikutkan aja sambil banyak serah diri pada Allah.. Dan jangan tolak, jangan pegang pun orang. kaki you jer bergerak arah ke hajar sambil berzikir dan berdoa.



Ada banyak kejadian2 yang sangat tak islamic dan kurang beradab sementara nak tunggu peluang tu.

1. Ada yang sampai tertanggal tudung - masyaAllah...

2. Orang tua yang nak pengsan, Alhamdulillah I dapat juga tolong dia keluar... ramai juga yang tolong dia keluar, yang tak tolong tu tapi terus tolak2, tu susah lah...

3. dah sampai depan hajar aswad, boleh pulak bergaduh, menjerit2 sebab kena tolak.. masyaAllah...

4. Ada plak yang curi barang, (my phone la tu)


So kejadian2 yang berlaku depan mata ni you just pasrah jer sambil tolong dan bantu orang lain yang kesusahan, insyaAllah Allah akan bantu kita bila kita susah nak keluar or apa2 saja... So akhirnya, selepas I tengok success indonesian group yang tolong sorang pempuan ni, i pun ikut jalan dia, sampai kat askar yang kat sebelah hajar aswad, tak lama lepas tu, I dah kat depan. nak cium i punya muka tak sampai, so i try masukkan muka i lagi, Alhamdulillah... Tapi betullah kata pengalaman2 orang lain, masa tu, you dah tak dengar bising2 or orang bertolak2, terasa sepi... it is just you , hajarul aswad and Allah... masyaAllah....



tetiba I di tolak keluar, tapi i hampir jatuh ke my knee. If I did mestilah habis i kena pijak. MasyaAllah, as I said earlier, kalau you tolong orang, Allah hantar orang lain bantu you, saudara serumpun kita lelaki, dengan pantas ragut belakang i dan terus i di tolak ke belakang oleh the crowd. MasyaAllahhhhhhhhh syukur!!!!


Lepas tu syujud syukurlah, atau solat sunat 2 rakaat, Alhamdulillah Allah makbulkan doa dapat tengok batu syurga.. MasyaAllahhhhh......



Alhamdulillah. Hopefully when it is your time, you will have the chance also. Amin!






House Projects : Xiaxue's new renovated hdb flat

Have you visited xiaxue's website?


if you have not, go go go.....  xiaxue.blogspot.com especially to those who wants idea for their house renovation.


She got an old HDB exec flat so it is quite spacious and the layout is I SO LOVE. the rooms are hidden and it is not out in the open for the guest. So it is definitely my choice. Great choice Wendy.


(all pics are from xiaxue.blogspot.com, "without permission..huhu" but I hope you do not mind gal. For those Singaporean, it features promotional products, so hopefully it will be useful for some)....



The area that I love most are.... drum rolllllllllll....ahaaa....................... :



THE SHOE CABINET!!!!! Love the design and color (some sort of green forgot the exact color) ! Btw, she got help from a professional photographer  so it really looks lovely.  DUN YOU JUST LOVE it? I am dying to get one for myself!



I love her wet kitchen as well. especially the glass door... The little details such as the label "kitchen" is just an awesome idea. For safety and for design... So cute. Glossy white is still my choice. She chose the "no handle" ones, which is more clean and lean. LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE it.

 


Her laundry area... love it. I love mine too, but this is sooooooo ugh magazine look right? too envy for... She put the dryer on top of the washer. Mine is side by side. For practicality, up and down is more practical... Because????? it is easy to unload from washer and straight to go to dryer.... if side by side, you can do it also but jatuh2 kain tu kadang (because of the opposite door, so u need a laundry basket to unload, before loading to the dryer... ok dun judge me, bukan malas, tapi I suka cut down process to speed up the work huhu..)

Nevertheless, I am glad I make my laundry area that way.. I love the area near to my kitchen. I am waiting for extra budget for my 3D TV so I can take my LCD TV down and hang it in my laundry area. It will be lovely, sambil masak, multitask laundry and I will not miss my favourite programs while laboring for love.... kan?

Random photos

This is the GRACO playpen. I could not find the full picture. Selling at RM200. Original price is at RM300++.



We must come again. I forgotten about this activity. 

Ballet grading... She got good results, among the best. But we do not continue :(



The making of the "bun" before ballet grading....

 She is into earings and stuff since her early age. Not like me.

Swissotel Estonia, this is the cappucino machine..

 The toilet is so luxurious. This is only some part of it...

 Kids at Hulu Langat, their first time..

During our first shoot for TV commercial...

 His first tae kwon do uniform.... Now he is in blue belt 2.

Swissotel Estonia...Seaview...

 Rambut kiting..... dah banyak kali cukur, hilang...

 During commercial shooting.. abang crew tolong layan supaya they came out natural..

Sambil tunggu orang lain punya turn..... the house is huge!

Wednesday, April 24, 2013

The office conflicts

I am sure you have experienced one way or another hurdle/s in your career.


Weeks back everything is just so unstable for me. 2 of higher position resign, 1 manager under suspension in the department. The secondment period also over for 2 of the executives. And direction is also very very blurry at the point of time.


The waiting game is just so nerve wrecking. The decision is just not coming. Not only for me but the vibe on the "below" staff had not been good as well.


I was still not getting over the fact I did not get platinum as for me I just so deserve it. The tasks that I do is just so tough and most challenging of all. Measuring from the acceptance and compliment from the board, audit committee members, ceo and the regulators, I thought I will be assessed appropriately.




It was really a slap on my face. And when you do not have a straight answers on why the performance is not as per the expectation, of course... I was just demotivated. DOWN moment.


But now when I looked back. What is the wisdom and tarbiah that Allah wants me to have?



To let go. Leave it to Allah.



It is a motherhood statement. But believe me it is NOT an easy thing to do. Since it is not easy, Allah with all HIS wise, give me those test.


If He gave me platinum, I think I am still not letting go and not putting things in the right places.


All of sudden, I can sleep at night. My priorities were in the right place esp. for the children. And I focus on the bigger picture.


Allah is really great. I know some of you who read this may think it is just "a motherhood statement". But really.................. understanding His wisdom and the lessons learnt is really a process...if you still do not embrace it and continue to weep , you will not taste this.


Alhamdulillah. He still loves me.
















Monday, April 22, 2013

Some cute photos...and baby items for sale.

Before that.

(I really hate having a title unstructured like that. I prefer abc: defghij) Dem, I am just going to mess my head and put whatever title I like. :)


Ok here are some cute photos to enjoy...




This double Phils and Teds stroller (works for babies and toddler or 2 toddlers) is FOR SALE @ RM2200 (neg) ; new P&T is priced at rm3k++ .  The price has taken into consideration that there is scratch at the foot and side. Nevertheless it still feel like new. The fabric can be machine washed etc.. we bought this in Mothercare Singapore.

It can also be folded even with the second seat attached! VERY IMPORTANT :P sebab lepas shopping ko nak detached bagai leceh kan. I loved it coz it works with the older children, kalau malas jalan, demam, nak tidur, they can hopped in and hopped out. It is roomy (it works with my gal and my boy at 7-9 years at that time) and smart design.orang akan tengok dua tiga kali lah sebab so smart and slim. Sebab tu I beli.

Other than that, I have GRACO play pen (animal theme) in light green. Bought at 350++, I can let go at RM200 (neg).

Something like this. nanti I amik picture yang betul ya... at least this will quest your curiosity dulu.


Since I had my miscarriage last Jan, I did not intend to get pregnant again.  (I am feeling so old now that I said this)

So I am selling my SPECTRA 3 (double) breast pump as well. I can give you the many bottles as well. It is still in a very good condition as I get to use it only for 8 mths. My sis in law try it recently (less than 2 mths) but she just not into breast feeding (some mothers just want the freedom at night, having formula milk is one way to get a husband to wake up too I guess huhu) so it is now back on sale. New product is priced at RM400++ just the pump and 1 extra tubing.

I can let go at RM200 (non neg). without bag. (SOLD)

Something like this.. 



All items can self pick up either pajam, nilai, KL, puchong.  

If you buy all 3, I give you a free bouncer (branded) but I forgotten the brand. It is in blue colour. The design is not horrendous dun worry. Can match boy or gal theme.... gal can use blue, but if you have pink, there goes, you need to buy another bouncer if your next baby will be a boy kan? That is how I think lah. 

 Macam ni lebih kurang.



The brand maybe fisher and price kot?  but the likeslah... but you won't care kan, it is free, to me it still looks new as there is no stain! The bouncer can also be converted as a seat when they turn toddler. if you only want to buy this, I can let go at rm80 (non-neg). haha sabau je la rm80 pun nak jual kan katanya.. kaler and corak maybe a bit different. the toys pun lain sket but the rest sama. I have to test the vibrator first. if vibrator tak works I sell you at rm50 bley? haha! sorry i tetap nak try jual ni kasi can! hahahahha!

Can you work with installment? hmm.. for phils and teds 2 installment boleh. Yang lain2 tu I prefer cash. Malas fikir, let's just get the sale done and we carry on kan senang kan kan kan...

Do leave a comment on how to contact you or email me at dialhanis@yahoo.com.

My fourth baby is the most challenging among our 4 babies. She is being warded at ICU 3 times for bronchitis. One of the time with me in London and the father in Singapore.

My sis and my mum were crying literally. Thanks for my PRUBSN insurance agent : Johari , I called him from Brighton to help my sis with the hospital arrangement. Masa tu tengah buat presentation kat seminar, so how to help with the time difference and expensive phone bills to give instructions sangat susah... Joe just came to my sis's side and help. Orangnya sangat cool. He is the top branch manager now (for the upteenth times). If you want to try engage him, education, health or even home protection, his number is 019-2883361.

Even my sister is impressed and blogged about him immediately. Please note, he is my friend, and I do not earn any commission. But he is good to me so I treat him like a dear friend. I recommended him to my staff and some of them engage him too.

I did recommend him to my best buddy as well. Memula dia tak amik, she took ING. peer pressure kot sebab ING kasik tshirt free masa tu hahahaha! Kawan office dia bragged about ING gak..1 year after, and it does sound so unreal....but her husband diagnosed with cancer, sadly I think some tak cover, so not to repeat the regret, dia amik untuk diri dia PruBSN. 

I am a believer (sebab dulu i ni agent gak so I attended all the seminar about this product hehehehee)  I took all my 4 kids the prubsn. I terminated singapore aviva and so far still intact. lebih kurang 4 -5 tahun da kot....


 Ahhh, just sooooo cute with no teeth smile like that. right?

Baby dylan ni lahir ketika kami dalam kesusahan financially so stroller dia yang paling murah :P We bought it from Tesco, or carrefour Singapore or Giant :P

 He is known for the big eyes!
 My second son. He and my 1st daughter share the same stroller and baby car carrier. :P At that time APRICA WASSSS the brand :P So it was Aprica. We have it till now. but back in Singapore's storeroomlah....

So tiny. Dun you just love babies.. I love the baby zapper wrap..it is still the new thing back then. Konon bosankan wrap dengan napkin putih tu huhu...

Ni lagi sorang. Johan masuk hospital. Anak pertama memang gitulah.. Jatuh katil pegi hospital, demam pergi hospital.. haha! Ubat kena baruuuuu jer tak boleh recycle ekekeke! teringat I was having a conversation with an experienced father, my ex-collegues in C*tbank Singapore, I was sooo disapproved when he told me "if the kids have fever, if more than 38 degree, just find the "bullet" and the fever will go down soon... " he stock "the bullet" and did not see doctor?? It was so bizarre back then! Now I understand where he's coming from :P Geez, fever is just so normal kay.



When both got fever, it was just a beginning of a nightmare. Plus 2 more later... macam main 4x400 silih berganti :P :P :P
 Her first hair cut. Every 1st activities in her life was being documented... Such a kiasu mum I was....She does look  like my second daughter aka my 4th child kan...